Wednesday, September 29, 2010

By golly this not being able to sleep immediately thing is so fucking annoying. That span between lying my head on the pillow and actually falling asleep makes me think I should be doing something, like drinking beer and eating peanuts with one leg put up on the chair, or curl someplace and cry, or go watch TV or something. So. fucking. annoying.

I should just go get some sleeping pills wtf.

Monday, September 27, 2010

I hate this shit. A little over an hour ago I was so fucking sleepy but once I actually lie on the bed I can't fall asleep. What the fuck man? Why does my mind do this to me? Go into overdrive when I need to fucking sleep. God.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

I'm so fucking bored it's actually kinda hard to believe how bored I am right now.

This level of boredom should be made illegal, you know?

Sunday, September 05, 2010

It's been crazy windy since yesterday. Before that, there was a day with perfect weather. Perfect, I say. It was warm and sunny, even the wind didn't chill you to the bones. Perfect for a little picnic. I should have known that one day of perfect weather meant a few later of gloomy / crazy ones. -_-

If the world is coming to an end, what with the quake in NZ and flood in Victoria all, just end faster lah without all the crazies can?

Friday, September 03, 2010


OMG Jay was that really you?? How the fuck did you get here anyway??

So in case it was really you, and you come back, I just wanna leave you a shout out.

You're fucking awesome! I wish you all the best in everything you do, and I really loved all your artwork (not to mention your sexcapades)! Haha your comment made my day :)
I try not to complain too much over here. As much as I might sound whiny and overall pansy over here, I really try not to fill this space with complaints about the same thing over and over again. Cos I don't like hearing people complain. It gets annoying. So I don't wanna inflict myself on others too.

But sometimes, I just wanna say, I'm tired.

I have no idea why a supposedly young person like me would say that they're tired. It's not like I asked to be this way... did I?

I'm tired of this semester. I'm tired of this place. I'm tired of myself.

I have no energy even though I don't do much. I just wanna take a deep sleep and not wake up, or wake up a gazillion years later. Maybe that's how long I need to recover from whatever it is that's tiring me out. Maybe that's how long it'll take for me to realize that the only thing tiring me out is in fact, myself.

To you: Am I not entitled to proclaim tiredness even though I'm only in my second year? If that makes me weak in your eyes, then yes I admit I'm fucking weak. You happy now?

There are many of us out there who, despite of all the flaws of the Government, all its screw ups, all the bad apples, still love our country.

If you ask me why, I can ramble on about the food and so on. But really, must there be a reason?

It's home. Isn't that enough?

Maybe what makes us, us is not the fact that we live in "racial harmony", not the fact that we have great food, not the fact that we have the unsexiest yet friendly accent, but that we have this unspoken, inexplicable love for our country although shit can get fucked up.

There are so many talented people with heart out there, I just wish there's a fucking gigantic sieve to sieve out all the bullcrap and leave on our grounds what's pure, sincere, brave, brilliant and hopeful.

Wishful thinking?