Monday, March 31, 2008


*cracks knuckles*

Apparently someone asked me to update hahaha. What lah now that I unintentionally let people discover my pathetic blog (haih) I shall be prudent in what I post!

(Read: Actually have nothing to blog about but die die wanna give some crappy excuse not to blog)

So now you know lah what goes on in my mind... DAMN LOT OF CURSING LOLOL. Well, not really lah I'm still very prim and proper one wahahaha... You believe me right right???

Thursday, March 20, 2008

I've been kinda off lately. There's just something not right with me. I feel lost. I'm retreating into my shell once again. I dunno...


Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Menses of the Nose

I wasn't familiar with the term "bag lady", till I became one. HAHAHAHA.

I is bag lady. LOL. I tell you I really looked and felt like a bag lady today, hence the frequent appearance of the sentence " I is bag lady " in mah mind.

Apart from that wtf, today I woke up with blood caked in my hair. -_________-.

Apparently I experienced a major case of nose bleed while unconscious (read: sleeping like a pig due to late night ventures to strip clubs <- I wish -_-) on my bed. I was woken up by the alarm clock (I think, or maybe it was my body waking up due to the shock caused by blood loss WTF) and felt something amiss wtf. You know lah the feeling when there's dry blood on your skin. Now just imagine that stream of dry blood CAKED (can't figure out a more appropriate word) along your left cheek.

I saw the pool of blood on my pillow case and I kinda figure out what happened. Still in shock, also unsure of the time since I was unaware whether the alarm clock rang or not, I went to the bathroom to inspect the damage wtf.

I LOOKED LIKE A FREAKING WAR VICTIM. Er, ok lah maybe that's an exaggeration wtf but this is the first time I experienced a case of major nose bleed while asleep. And my pillow looked like a freaking pillow of a war victim wtf. No kidding wtf.

The metallic smell of blood kept lingering when I washed my hair. It seemed to me that the blood just kept sticking to my hair wtf. Damn unsettling lor can wtf.

Then I went to college looking like a bag lady wtf. The end.

I blogged a post about nose bleed wtf -____-. My life is god damn interesting la can.

p/s: Hope can hand in draft tomorrow! Gambate add oil add sugar add salt wtf.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Dai Sei / Masochist

I am SOOOOO god damn sleepy right now! But I can't sleep! Cos have to finish mah god damn draft!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH SOMEBODY! KILL ME! Sooooooooo sleepyyyyyyyyyyyy..... T_T Wanna pengsan edi wtf.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Do You Feeeeel My Desperado-ness



I know lah I only have myself to blame hehehehehehe...

I've gone crazy I tell you! CUCKOO! CUCKOO!


Yo Who's Your Mama Now Huh? (LAME)

Today is Sunday. Stating the obvious, duh. Mah point is today I have to go back to Subang... T_T.

And being the queen slacker that I am, I did just a teensy weensy part of my draft. Great. May I hear some applause please? I have like 5? hours to finish it. HAHA. I'm not kidding myself. I know I won't get it done by then. I just KNOW that I'll be handing in some half ass crap excuse of a draft. What a good student am I.

Aiya don't care edi lah just finish this shit only lah. (Me likey this sentence as it shows appropriate amount of I-don't-give-a-fuck-ness and attitude, no?)

Till then. Toodles.

The One Where I Thought I Was A Lion WTF

I deserve a freakin' award for being the mother of all slackers!!!!!!! ROARRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

I shalt not sleep tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!

Semangat or not I ask you?? LOLOLOL.

This is just to mask the fact that I'm DEAD. DEAD, I tell you. Wtf.

I shall whine more bout this scholar crap!

Others would think," Aww, you people are so lucky that you got scholarships and now you're whining??? Count your blessings ok!! I/My son/My daughter/My niece/My dog's friend's owner's boss' daughter/You get the fuckin' drift didn't get any ok!!! We have to PAY for our OWN FREAKIN' EDUCATION!!!! AND YOU'RE WHINING??? YOU USELESS PIECES OF UNGRATEFUL CRAP!!! "

Well I can't argue with you that we were "lucky" to be selected... but lo and behold... life as a scholar SUCKS. THE GRASS IS NOT ALWAYS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE WTF.

Imagine, constantly being reminded that you're fuckin' scholars, that you HAVE to get good results, that you ARE supposed to get fuckin' straight As, that you're are supposed to be BETTER than the private students goddamnit. And when you perform LIKE an average student, you feel like CRAP cos your lecturer keeps on comparing you to the private students.

"You guys are SCHOLARS (FOR FUCK'S SAKE)!" Like we're supposed to be superior like that. Like we are geniuses like that wor. Granted, some may be geniuses wtf. But WTF we are human beings also ok stop treating us like fucking aliens. (And the reason why we got so many As in SPM is cos we MEMORISED KAO2 WTF. Well, in my case lar hehe) We have feelings too ok. MCHCCB. And contrary to popular belief, we don't devour books 24/7! (My class lor at least) We are normal beings who wanna have fun and enjoy our college life!!!!!!!!! YOU HEAR THAT MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!! ROARRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! (Wah damn gek dong wtf)

There's ALWAYS the pressure to perform well, cos if you don't, your freakin' scholarship gets taken back! Oh that's fine with me actually I don't want it anyway (eh that rhymes wtf) but we have to pay them back if we don't meet their requirements -________- or if we break any rules in the contract whatever lah. I HATE THE WORD SCHOLAR I HATE BEING LABELLED AS ONE. ROARRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

"You have to get good results, otherwise you'll lose your scholarship bla bla BLA..."


p/s: And this is why I don't reveal my blog to my friends LOLOLOLOL damn emo sumore so foul wtf. Actually I'm very demure one in person BWAHAHAHAHAHA. Up to you whether you believe or not lah hahaha...

Friday, March 14, 2008

Horton Hears A Who vs. The Mist

Hmmm.. not really sure what to blog about now...

But anyway yesterday went to watch Horton Hears A Who with mah best friend... it was pretty enjoyable, till it got to the part where the kangaroo bitch convinced everyone to cage Horton and boil the freaking clover in dunno-what oil. The scene so god damn reminded me of The Mist, which my bros & I watched the day before on my bro's PC.

The Mist was about some fucked up military experiment that opened up the doors of another dimension to our world. Something like that lah I didn't catch the beginning. And there were this group of people trapped in a supermarket. These creatures from the other dimension were pretty... I don't have other words to describe them except for er.. fucked up wtf... pardon me haven't been articulate and never will be wtf...

At least that's what we thought it was about till this preachy bitch started yapping her trap. She'd say that this was God's punishment bla bla bla and there'll be blood bla bla bla all those biblical crap lah. And when blood was shed, some people started to actually believe her. Desperate times bring out the worst in people. More and more people listened to her crap and the bitch really thought she was God's messenger or what. So there we knew, that this movie was also about "religious zealots" as my bro put it.

It got to a point where a military guy got stabbed thrice, was carried away, screaming like a wounded animal, to outside the supermarket where he was finally devoured by a huge ass creature from the other dimension. Because all this was supposedly all HIS fault and his blood had to be shed. Because all the crap believers listened to her every word and got mindfucked. When the people with their minds and conscience still intact knew that he wasn't to be blame, and sacrificing him wouldn't do anyone any good.

I tell you, when the guy was stabbed and the blossom of blood slowly expanded on his shirt, it was disturbing. One could literally feel his pain. The injustice! The insanity! The barbarism! WTF??? WTF is wrong with these people???? The guy was screaming and screeching in pain OMG . And when they cheered and carried him away, he was writhing and screaming and SCREAMING. OMG one couldn't bear to look on. It was highly disturbing, to say the least.

And the scene when Horton was tied and forced into a cage... when everyone was listening to the kangaroo bitch.. when everyone was taunting and shouting, reminded me so god damn much of that scene. It was supposed to be a kid's movie, but the message the two movies conveyed had similarities.
And so on and so forth.

But of course since "Horton" is supposed to UMUM and watched by innocent wide-eyed kids, the ending was different. In the end everyone found out that there WERE living beings on the clover and stopped all their 'let's burn the witch on the stake' actions. The kangaroo repented and helped to shade the clover (pffft like that's any use wtf) to the top of Mt Nool where it's the safest for the Who's. Happy ending the end wtf.

The moral of the story was supposed to be "a person's a person, no matter how small" or something like that lah. But now we all know what it's REALLY about huh... all thanks to me wtf.

There was also this subplot about Jojo, the mayor's son who felt misunderstood and was afraid to disappoint his Dad. Sigh could so relate to that. He sorta saved the day. Sigh I wish I could relate to that wtf.

By the way, why were both troublemakers in both movies FEMALES??? Wtf is that supposed to mean? That bitches are more convincing? That bitches are more fucked up and should be burnt on stakes? Hmmm...

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

3 Sentences

OMG all I wanna do is lie on my bed with my laptop and play kiddy online games like CHUZZLE all day long!!!!

Again I don't have to earn a lot of money to do that right??? All I need is enough money to buy food and rent a place wtf.

Mother of All Evils

I hereby conclude that the Internet is EVILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What I wanted to do was to search for information and start on my drafting... but.. but.. the LURE of the EVIL Internet made me read blogs and now here I am blogging!!!!! Now I'm itching to play free kiddy online games!!!!!! OMG someone save me from myself please!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why don't I have any self control at all??? WHY TELL ME WHY. T__________T (been using this A LOT lately wtf)

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I'm A Simple Girl leh

It's been a long time since I sat down and read a good book. At the end of the day, all I wanna do is sit on a comfortable couch, read a good book and drink some coffee. And draw.

That's all I'm asking for. I don't have to earn a lot of money to do that right? T_______T.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Random shit

OOO the last post was the 88th! *clap clap* auspicious number wtf.

Random thought: Can one's head fall off due to too much head banging? LOL. Or will the vertebrae snap? LOLOL. Retarded questions I know. Just some thoughts.

People are anticipating the impending '513'. Seems like there's no so-called racial harmony after all.

Side note: Gerard Way ROCKS. MCR ROCKS. Arghhhhhh when are they coming back?????

p/s: I'm probably the most unproductive person ever existed.

p/p/s: I wanna get a tattoo! Waiting for my best friend lar... we go 'permanently disfigure' our skin together ya~? Ooooh can't wait! I've already got my potential tattoo drawn out today!



The thing I'm best at is WASTING TIME. I was doing my homework but half way through I played Bejeweled wtf. WTF. I don't know what's wrong with me too. And now? It's 5 something already. 5 FUCKING SOMETHING. Why la why time passes so fast????

T_______________________T... there's nothing more apt to express how I'm feeling right now. Sometimes I wish I were a retard, instead of always acting like one. Aiyaaaaaaaaaaa dunno larrrrrrrrr... I feel like getting out of this house but got nowhere to goooooooo... T_T..

So hor, after elections already right... the media is like waving the racial card in people's faces don't you think so? Somehow I think BN wants another 513 to happen so that they can go ' NAH nah see? Vote for opposition this is the outcome la! Told you edi for peace, stability bla bla bla vote for BN la! You all brought all these upon yourselves cis! ' *smug look wtf*

IS there gonna be another 513?

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Getting Shorter

Please don't make me hate you guys. I've resorted to locking myself in my room. To avoid you guys, and to use my freaking laptop. I can't even hold my phone with peace now. I dread coming home and I dread going back to college. Where else is there for me to go? Somewhere stress free and totally liberating? Is there such a freakin place?

I feel like I wanna kick some ass. Or kill someone. Wanna run away. Escape. Be another person.

If only.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Whatever You Wanna Call It

This conflict between my friends... I dunno whether I should campur tangan or not. Seriously. But there's nothing much I can do anyway. Sigh. Why must they create all these tension between themselves? I've forgotten how it all began. What's the point? I dunno!!!! Cannot just live together in harmony meh? DENG~!

Suffocating. All these stress. It's suffocating. I can't deal with stress. Been emo these few days. Can't seem to lighten up. I've been ignoring him. Am I being too cruel? I dunno. Maybe it's better for both of us to forget about each other? I dunno. Maybe I shouldn't give him any hope since most probably nothing's gonna happen anyway? I DON'T KNOW.

Monday, March 03, 2008

OMFG! Over excited Like Hell

OMG someone commented on my blog!!!! HAHA sorry lar if I'm over excited but I thought that would never happen! Deng~! HAHAHAHA...


Sigh serious crap. Is this the first time I've cried over crappy results? I think so.

I can say that many did badly as well, but I just feel like that's finding excuses for myself. I have no one but myself to blame, I know. I just don't have the heart to study, and I wonder if I'm just plain stupid. Maybe even retarded wtf. I just feel so stupid. Like *knock knock* anything in there?? *echo* There's nothing in my head T_T.

Sigh. Feel like crap. I dunno how to face my parents. I'm ashamed. I dunno. What's wrong with me. Sigh.

Seriously every subject also didn't do well. Wtf. Sigh I dunno what I'm feeling right now. Cried in front of classmates wtf. Couldn't control myself.

I'm rambling again wtf.