I don't know why I find it exceptionally hard to communicate with my parents. They just make me feel stressed out, man.
And I think it's even worse when it's through SMS or online, cos I have to be extra careful with how I construct my sentences and all so that my tone won't be misconstrued as being rude or disrespectful, or annoyed. So I choose to make it as short as possible, to avoid any misunderstandings. But then again being so concise may be interpreted as another form of rudeness as well, as in 'I don't want to talk to you'. Which is actually partly true, cos I feel stressed out like that when I talk to them. Another reason would be I don't have anything to say to them.
So damn stressful. It's like something constricting my heart. Just this gnawing, sinking feeling.
I think I've been too obedient for too long that even speaking my mind is really hard to do now.
Been kinda restless lately and I haven't had my period. Fuck this shit.