I'm feeling restless. I feel like I should be doing something, but I just can't get my ass off the chair to do anything. I hate this sensation, where my heart feels like its being clenched. It feels like a rock. Heavy, very heavy. I feel suffocated. All I wanna do is rip my heart out and scream.
Why am I like this?? I don't know!!!
I haven't found what motivates me in life... anything that keeps me going. Sometimes I feel so... dead inside. Dead dead dead. I have no fucking idea what I'm doing, why I'm doing it or who am I. Clueless and lost. And alone.
Hey, you know what. Those could have been song lyrics.
Sometimes I feel so DEAD inside...
No fucking idea what I'm doing
Why I'm doing it
Who am I?
Clueless and lost...